Ever been so wrapped up in your own head and your own self that you missed what was going on with others? Ever done something that benefited you, but disenfranchised another? Ever taken the easy way out, knowing it wasn't the best for students? Or your peers?
I'm finding myself in a place of a bit of conviction about pride, selfishness and arrogance. As an educator, that is a horrible trifecta.
We've all had selfish days. Many of us have ambition, but can sometimes forget Education is about relationships- and ambition must never trump relationships- I am sorry for sometimes forgetting that.
I am eager to grow as an educator and I believe in the methods I use to reach students. In my zeal, I may come across as arrogant- I am sorry.
I have been impatient with students and hypocritically slow to respond at times. This is me putting myself before students- I am sorry.
If if I have missed your request for aid, or not given you the time you need, or acknowledged your concern- I am sorry.
I share this this because I am coming to recognize that as I seek to increase student voice, I need to model transparency and honesty. I have come to feel that I have fallen into habits reflected in the confessions above, and I wanted to express my regret because teaching is collaborative with our peers, and with our students. Pride and selfishness get in the way of that.
So my goals from here on are simple- be present for my fellow educators and my students. Be patient, and be humble. And when I am not- seek forgiveness. And if I am unaware, kindly accept an admonition.
We grow through reflection and coaching, but it doesn't just have to be about instructional methods.
It it can be about character, too.